It’s been a real while since I last wrote. I miss talking to you. Just so you know, I’m in love! I’m in love with someone i just cannot describe. It will take the whole dictionary to describe him. Wait, no, words aren’t enough to define this person I have fallen for. But since we’re on tumblr, I figured I have to articulate my thoughts in words, believable words worth the read. What’s really sure is that I love this guy. Let’s call him Mr. Cucumber for now - and yes, the green edible cucumber - someday you’ll know why. It’s not that I’m keeping secrets from you Gary, I will tell you, it’s just that I want to make it more thrilling and exciting for both of us.
Today, I felt unsure about Mr. Cucumber, my love for him, his love for me. This is crazy Gary, one second I’m talking about this wonderful and awesome guy, and the next is me feeling unsure about him. But what the heck, let’s get it on. Yes, I felt like I was walking on a wobbly plank and i didn’t want to fall off. I needed assurance. Questions ran through my head like “how much does he love me?” or “how long is he really going to stay with me?” and even “what’s next? what’s beyond our exchanges of ‘I love yous’?” Weird Gary, I tell you, really weird and stupid. I did think about those questions, and I resolved that I should talk to him over the phone as soon as possible. By the way, the guy lives in Cebu so we’re separated by a great distance. Anyways, i wanted to talk to him stat but he was at this high school reunion. Isn’t that always the way, in days like this, when the month of December is about to end, most people just go back to their hometowns to see their family and closest friends. I couldn’t intrude, interupt and spoil his fun, it was also one way of respecting him.
Oh Gary, let’s finish this tomorrow, I’m tired and this laptop is dying to rest, and i said dying because it’s battery is dying and it needs to be turned off now. I will talk about love and assurance I promise you that.
I’m actually using dad’s laptop right now. I wish I had one of my own. It’s really, accessible and dependable. I’m going to buy a laptop for myself someday.
Let’s resume this later - to prolong the agony, the anxiety, the curiosity, the thrill and of course the excitement. Toodles Gary, stay swanky.